The blog almost got dropped. I changed my name from 2ndandL on Instagram, and deleted my twitter. I deactivated my Facebook, and I just started blocking. The Block Feature, it is not something I run from. Sometimes it needs to happen. Not forever, but sometimes for a season, you’ve got to do what you have to do to move forward. Block. This time it came back to me, it was the topic of conversation, and it got me thrown under the bus by a so-called friend. It’s cool, things happen. Things change, and we’ve all got to do what we have to, to move forward.
Reality Check: Life is about moving on. Moving away from mistakes, learning from them, but not staying in that space. Moving on from sin, repenting, and changing your behavior. Moving on from failures and disappointments, because…if you learned something, it wasn’t a waste of time.
#AllSummer16 : Move On
I was tired, I get tired easily. Life comes so fast. I like structure, I like planning, but that’s not how it works all of the time. I was tired, my feelings were hurt by someone I cared about, and then I was ignored, literally, ignored. Actually, no, not ignored. I got a head nod. It seemed like some slow motion scene from some twisted version of Brown Sugar, without a nice ending. A head nod, like I was some trick on the street. Writing it, still makes me laugh. But again, it’s cool things happen.
Renewal + Redemption
God’s perfect plan. As a Christian, I have faced many crossroads where I had to choose between God’s way, and the world’s way. Honestly, I haven’t been doing the best job of choosing God’s way. When I was sad and needed Him, I’d call. But when I was good and having fun, I was back doing what I wanted. But ya know, God is a God of order, not of confusion. The slope I was going down didn’t seem that slippery. I was good, it was good. Skrrrt. #Godbelike. Every loss, is not a loss. God tends to add, by subtracting…and sometimes that hurts. God tends to shut down things that aren’t in His will.
God is consistent. He is stable, and sure, He is all knowing, and comforting, strict, but kind. He does not give head nods.
So, I was rescued and redeemed. I was given another chance to surrender my plans, and to get my act together. It is not always the easiest, God’s way, that is. But I believe it is worth it. I have been listening to my Audio Bible on the way to and from work, and replenishing my spirit with His world. Repentance – asking for forgiveness and changing my behavior.
I was wrong, I was stressed, I was tired. I was compromising, and becoming delusional. I started to feel like I was competing with something, I was comparing my journey.
“We do not dare to classify or compare ourselves with some who commend themselves. When they measure themselves by themselves and compare themselves with themselves, they are not wise.” 2 Cor 10:12
I began to question God’s will. God does not contradict Himself. The word of God will never contradict the word of God, and vice versa. Spared. again. My foolish self, was spared. Forgiven, and redeemed.
Sad sometimes, yea. But God is faithful, so faithful. What is for you, is for you.
No more head nods, unless I’m bowing my head in prayer.
Renewal + Redemption